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Do you suffer from severe anxiety or nervousness?
Down in the Dumps? Feeling Blue? Depression setting in?
Do you fear new situations or being in crowds?
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I have been absolutely paranoid and anxious lately. I am not too worried about it because I always go through this right before the spring. Right before daylight savings time begins. Those last few months of darkness and misery. It has really gotten to me lately though. I used to say I had S.A.D. cubed . . .
Severe Anxiety Disorder
Social Anxiety Disorder
Seasonal Affectedness Disorder
I also used to think I was manic depressive but now it's not PC to say that and everyone is calling it "bi-polar" and I just can't get into that terminology. It depresses the fuck out of me. That is, when I am not elated.
Every time I have quit a job in my life it has been in March or April
March 1997 quit job moved home from London
March 1999 quit job moved to Boston
March 2000 quit job did nothing
Yesterday I walked to work convinced that I had lit numerous candles around the house just before I left. Walking home from work last night I had a hard time convincing myself that I had not pulled out a gun and put a bullet hole through my computer screen just before I left after everyone had gone. Smoking on the porch, I felt that someone was behind me prepared to send an axe through my back.
Today, I just might have left the food processor on with the top off. I hope to god that Casper doesn't go nosing around that one.
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