Nutshell Kingdom: untitled email rant (getting it off my chest)
2003
It's been one of days or series of days when you want really desperately to reach out there to the world and tell them what's going on, how you're feeling, tell them what you need -- and you do. You try really hard to balance emotionally charged need for contact with a semi-restrained "I'm ok" attitude -- and nothing happens. Your vibes bounce out into the world and nobody cares. They didn't even notice.
I have a close friend who I only occasionally email because 1)she often just doesn't respond and 2) I see her everyday anyway. But lately, I have emailed her specifically either 1)questions or 2)suggestions and have gotten answers to either. No response. It's as if she just glances and deletes. And doesn't mention it later either. It isn't as if I'm flooding her inbox! Am I just wasting my time here? The answer is probably yes. Thoughtless girl. No idea how that lack of *what?* hurts.
