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Art Colony: doom: it's frightening?
Saturday, December 4, 2004
› by victoria
first off, there's no better way to start your day than to wake up at 8 AM, do the dishes, swiffer the kitchen floor, make pancakes and coffee for breakfast for yourself & b-f, then wash up and get dressed, find a bunch of information that you need to use for homework, have a cigarette, take out the garbage and get a ride to work (stopping only to fill up for gas) by 10:11 AM on Saturday morning, then read Happyrobot essay postings about such fascinating and varied topics as falling down shale hills, working with schoolkids, and reasons why people hate/love Christmas while at work.
I love this website!
That said, I have a kind've bad feeling about later today. I don't know why I agreed to do this, but my family is coming to meet me where I work in the library to take me out to lunch for an hour. I haven't seen my family (except for my dad) ever since I moved out a few months ago, which was incredibly rough and very emotionally-stressful. I can't cancel on them at this late a notice since i'm supposed to be meeting them at 2 PM, but I feel like I'm being forced to do this, rather, and they won't support me in any way (financially, emotionally, etc.) so I don't know why I'm agreeing to meet them when there will probably be nothing in it for me except distress and loads of good ol' Catholic guilt (lay it on thick! like butter!). My boyfriend doesn't know about this--if he did, he'd freak out, because he believes that they only bring out the most sad and angry and frustrated feelings in me. Which makes me feel even better. I'm just anticipating a huge scene with lots of familial crying and blame-throwing--urgh. Gotta start stabilizing myself now, I guess.
I still feel like I post too much, but I feel like maybe this will make things a little bit easier to deal with for me. And I have something to look forward to, as well--Gallery Night at this local Milwaukee gallery that's really quite cool, check it out at Hotcakes Gallery
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