I am sick and tired and hot and well...just down today, but embarrassingly so, because there's obviously no reason for that feeling, just a pervasive downness, totally unjustified, but rises up (or maybe sinks) from time to time, a down that seems based on the simple fact that I have to get up and go to work and go home and do all those things that everyone does without anywhere near as much complaining, so it's embarrassing to be so plagued vague or especially very specific wants, I will not detail, that are at-present impractical or possibly impossible, but there's always work! and the sad thing is there is always work which isn't even all that bad or a nice homelife which may lack for excitement but allows quiet for books and music and wet grass to smell and strawberry lillies abloom in the back and there you have it...