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Cootie Girl: Thoughts for a Sunday afternoon ....
4.24.2005
Ok late afternoon but I'm at work and I don't have a window so I have no real concept of time anymore. What's bugging me is the usual of course - I hate my job. Today my co-worker is telling me he may have found a new one and that pisses me off because I should be the first one out of here not him. I really don't HATE my job I am just bored and annoyed most of the time because my job is a "service" job where I have to do stuff for clients however I never get any benefits like a percentage of the bills I process or bonuses or even a decent raise. My last job I had 4 weeks vacation and when I left at the end of the day my work was left for the next day. I didn't get calls at night or I didn't have the annoyance that I knew someone was working my job on a second shift. I mostly hate this second shift idea - I mean you would think it's great right all your work will be done when you get in and you can start on a fresh day with new projects. That never happens here of course because I end up coming in the next day and stuff is either not done to the way I like or not done at all. No notes on where stuff is or what is in or went out. I am basically spending half my morning tracking shit down the other half trying to get it done all the while dealing with the client's calls and in house visits. I am sick of it. I hate working weekends - I hate that I am the only woman in this office because now I totally feel like I am the babysitter here and I am dealing with a bunch of whining babies that all want to go outside and play because the weather is so nice. DON'T YOU THINK I WANT TO GO OUT AND PLAY TOO! Not to be redundant but I hate it here. I swear I would leave in a heartbeat if I could but I know the consequences of leaving a job before you have another one to go to. I think about other jobs that I might want to have or what I think I would like to do but I don't think at my age I could start over with half the salary I am making now. I sometimes think about working at Tower Records again - even though that is also a "service" job I somehow was able to manage it fine for 6.5 years .... It could have been all the booze and allowable abuse to the tourist but hey that is what was so special about that place. Maybe I just need to start drinking on the job. That might get me through the summer I suppose. Ok my relief is here so I can go home and sleep now only to come back in 12 hours YEAH WORK.
