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I have conflicted feelings about you. It sometimes seemed like you secretly loved me - I mean shit I'm in this free house you gave me for a year - and then oddly you're declaration is what drove me to the brink of death. Picturing you and my mom and you talking about all of us and saying "I'm not giving shit to your kids when I die" and then having her just take it - it really showed me what a lie I was living - thinking I was loved. In reality, after hearing that, I recognized that I was just a burden. It would be better for everyone if I just left the scene.
My favorite memories of you were laughing with my mother. Hell, I really really loved you before you didn't talk to me for two decades until I married mark and because "a success" for that. I remember once when you visited us in riviera courts laughing so hard with you. I really loved you.
Now, you're like asshole Tony, and you cut people off - not just me. You really need to check your bullshit and allow Max back into your life. I know you're scared of people and scared of showing your feelings, but I really really really really appreciate how kind you are to my mother and how you loved her. thank you for that.
You called me a loser and pathetic and that you felt sorry for me the last time we saw each other.
well, I'll end on your favorite thing. You're always right.
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